i had the heartbreak of a lifetime on sunday. never before experienced so much pain or frustration. i was honest. i told him exactly how i felt. and i was rejected and heard the “it’s not you, it’s me” nate heard from serena and the “we can still be friends” brooke heard from lucas and all the little catch phrases that don’t mean ANYTHING. like what we lived before didn’t even matter. i experienced actual physical pain, like my whole body was beaten up.
i know it’s his loss and i know it’s for the best. i know i’m beautiful and great and that i’ll find someone who deserves me. i can only feel sorry for his inability of fighting over something; for settling for the easy way. but right now i need you, my friends. i need to talk about it and i need you to care and i really want you to be here so i don’t lose myself over something that will go away eventually.
i love you guys. thank you.
I’m not a good person. Never did a good thing in my life.
Skins AU: Picks up after series 4. Cook avenges Freddie and kills Foster, which results in Cook and Effy going on the run together once again. They spend their nights partying hard and their days as professional scam artists, cheating rich folk out of their money.